Day Eight: A Moment I Felt the Most Satisfied with My Life

Day 8 of the 30 Day Writing Challenge


Day Eight: A Moment I Felt the Most Satisfied with My Life

I've thought about this quite a bit and I can't pinpoint one moment when I felt the most satisfied with my life. Also, I understand satisfaction to mean something other than 'happy' or 'proud' or 'elation'. I equate satisfaction with contentment, utter peace even if only for a moment. I have had (thankfully) more than one of those moments. In no particular order:
I was driving with my hubby to visit friends in St-Jean-sur-Richelieu. For those of you who have driven out that way, you know you have to drive through fields and farmland. The sun was setting and it wasn't the kind of sunshine that hurts your eyes but the kind that mesmerizes you. I just felt...peaceful. Content. Like I didn't need or want for anything.
My hubby had to travel throughout Ontario for work right after we got married. Since I had just graduated and was without a job, I decided to join him. It was wonderful and terrible all at the same time. I never realized how much I needed my part-time job and my schooling to validate myself. If you don't work, if you don't go to school, if you don't do something, then who are you? What worth do you have? It's one of the paradoxes of God's love: He loves you for simply being. At the time, I couldn't wrap my head around it. I felt pretty low. On top of that, I missed my family a lot. I hated missing our Sunday dinners and so happy when we would drive back home for the weekend. On one of those Sundays at my parent's house, we had just finished having dinner. Imagine twelve people around two tables pushed together, the windows fogged up because it's so warm, a scattering of dishes and condiments on the tables, and everyone talking, laughing, kids shrieking--in short, life. I stood at the kitchen door watching everyone and appreciating my family. My sister, Little Jo, caught me at it and said, "Soaking it all up?" Embarrassed, I said 'no' but in truth I WAS. I was so content to be with my family and for that one moment, satisfied.
I can think of a few other moments but there's nothing really special about them, nothing that really stands out. They are times when I'm with my husband or with family or friends and I am at peace with myself. I couldn't ask for anything more and I feel blessed. Day-to-day I know logically that I'm blessed but it's in those moments that I know it. I can feel it in my bones. Sure, graduating was great, getting married was wonderful and having my baby was unbelievable but in those moments I was too amped up to really appreciate what was going on.
So that's that! Nothing exciting but there you have it.