Day Nine: How I Hope My Future Will Be Like

Day 9 of the 30 Day Writing Challenge

Day Nine: How I Hope My Future Will Be Like

I think this topic is kind of redundant since I already posted about where I wanted to be in 10 years. Nonetheless, I'll try to add something new.

I hope that in the future, I will be more confident in my abilities. This includes my ability as a wife, mother, as well as my work skills. Sometimes I think my husband should have married someone else. Someone Egyptian and who speaks Arabic because it would make things easier on him and his family. They wouldn't have to switch to English because of me and the cultural differences that sometimes create obstacles wouldn't be there. Or maybe he should have married someone who liked to cook! I don't apologize for my likes and dislikes but sometimes I feel bad that my culinary skills are, well, on a scale of 1 to 10, a 2. The frozen food section in the grocery store is quite well known to me! (To be clear these are my hang-ups. My husband has never said anything like this or even implied it.)
And as a mom, I'm constantly questioning myself. Am I interacting enough with my baby? Should I be more happy as a mom? Am I causing my daughter psychological damage? Okay that last one was a joke (maybe) but you get what I'm saying. I hope that I can say with conviction that I'm a good mom.
As for work skills, I know that I have some but sometimes when push comes to shove I'm frozen in my fear of failure. I'd like to be able to say, "Yes, I can do that!" Or, if I can't, I'd like to say, "I don't know how but I know that I can learn" instead of thinking I best just leave well enough alone.

In the future, whatever happens, I hope to be content with my lot in life.  I hope to love and be loved. I hope to be a blessing.

I hope.