I've fallen off the eating-better-bandwagon and I don't know how to get back on.
I'm a big Pinterest fan and often times I will see before and after photos of women who have lost significant weight. How do they do it?? I have been cursed with the type of body that does not lose weight easily but does gain weight easily. While I was getting my master's degree I saw a nutritionist once a week for an entire year. I went from fast walking on the treadmill four times a week for 30 minutes to jogging/running at least five times a week for an hour. I took aqua fitness classes. All of that and I lost a scant 10 pounds.
I will admit: my body shape changed, my clothes fit better, my skin was clearer and I felt better. So I realize that the number on the scale isn't the only factor in good health. Just the same, I guess I expected to be super thin and ready to wear a bikini. But maybe I've got such warped vision when it comes to my body image that I didn't see how much I had changed. I don't know.
I do know that while I'm not terribly unhappy with myself, I'm not terribly happy, either. I think about Jr and how I want to be able to keep up with her (as much as an adult can keep up with a toddler); I want to be the mom that can run and play or the mom that chooses to sit and watch her kids play -- not because I'm too overweight and tired.
I want to feel sexy again in front of my husband. Logically, I know he thinks I'm all that and a bag of chips. I know he still wants me. I remember my dad telling me once that a man will always think you look like a million bucks. Because you're naked. For him. And he's gonna get lucky. Period. And by the end of our romp, I always feel 100% about myself because hubby's just that good. But it still takes will power to keep the lights on. And getting on top?? With all my chins and blubber hanging down like that?? Tough, very tough.
I think one of my biggest motivations right now is having another baby. I would like to try having another baby next year and so I have a little over a year to get my body the way I want it. Ideally, I would be 30 pounds lighter. If not that, at least what I was when I got pregnant with Jr.
The worst part is knowing that I know how to lose the weight because I've done it before. I know what I need to do, there's no real mystery, despite wondering how all those other women did it. Eat better and exercise. I just can't find the desire to really do it and stick with it.
I think you need to make a real Pinterest account so you can follow only things that will inspire you. I had to stop following a few people due to their politics (seriously, what is it with these people who post things that imply that taxes for social programs to help the poor is stealing, but are alsoposting Bible verses?)
ReplyDeleteYou need to focus on what a real woman looks like. We are so inundated with images (that are most likely photoshopped) of what we should look like that it is very demotivating when we think that no matter what we do, we will never look like that.