Baby Envy

I received some big news on Friday. My friend 'M', mother to Little Monster, announced that she and her hubby are trying for baby #2. Little Monster will be 2 in September. 

It's a weird feeling when someone you know tells you they are trying for a baby and even more so when they tell you they are pregnant. You're happy for them, of course, but also a little envious. I know I'm not completely crazy because I've heard other women say the same thing.

Even though I know I'm not ready just yet to start working on Jr's little brother or sister, hearing 'M' talk about having a baby made me want one. It's a very strange thing, which I can't fully explain. You might think it's plain old jealousy but I don't get the same feeling when my friend AD talks about her new home and the awesome renos she's doing. I'm envious, of course, but it doesn't make me want to go out and buy a new fridge. Or knowing that my sister, Malt_Soda, is visiting all sorts of cool places in the States. It would be great to travel like that but I'm in no rush to get my passport renewed.

Babies, though, babies are a different story. It's like your brain shuts off and you completely forget about the horrible sleep deprivation. You even forget about the not-so-great consequences of pregnancy: peeing every minute, sore back, not being able to sleep on your stomach...

You just remember how it felt to be special. The way most people would smile at you just because of your belly. How excited you were to know if you were having a boy or a girl and what he/she looked like and what features she would take from you and hubby. That moment when you see her on the ultrasound monitor and realize you have a human life inside of you.

It is the hopeful and wonderful feeling of The Beginning. Of creating a new life made out of the love you share with your mate.

I wonder if those feelings ever go away when you hear someone is expecting. Does it still hit you even when you and hubby have decided unequivocally that he'll get snipped and your family is complete?

In any case, I'm very happy for 'M'. I hope they have fun getting the job done!